my plans are achievable, theyre just a lot of change. Missing out on that time, being stuck here not doing the things I am passionate about, thats done a number on my ability to be passionate. Im afraid I’ll fail because of the time I wasted in schoo
Dude, SAME. I was so FUCKING passionate about music and art and politics and…just…LIFE at the start of high school. You remember me, back when we were in a band, and I was happy almost all the time and got REALLY into my music every time we played and…that doesn’t happen anymore. Four years of high school has destroyed my motivation and passion. Today, for the first time in AWHILE, I played guitar really loud and ACTUALLY headbanged and got really into it…that’s a rare thing now, and it’s really sad, but I can’t do jack shit about it because all passion has been sucked from me by the school system.
people who always change their opinions to match with someone elses
Alex said: Exactly. Yes. Fuck yes. Ugh brotha gimme some love. Are you getting that thing where youre kind of panicked because you dont think you’ll be able to do the things that make your life worth it? like you wont be able to do all the things you want
Nah, I don’t have much I plan to do and all my goals are pretty achievable, so…all I really wanna do before I die is move out, get a car, go to Defqon.1, try Molly at Defqon.1 and Acid some time later in my life (both simply to experience the amazing things our brains can do and the things we can feel), and become a welder. I’m a simple man.
But yeah, I cannot WAIT to get the fuck out of here…but I’m mostly PISSED THE FUCK OFF!!! I’ve had to miss out on thirteen years of real life! I haven’t gotten to do all the shit I want to do because school has gotten in the way. It’s fucking sickening.
i am so fucking done with this text book.
I think that graduating soon really amplifies those feelings. It’s like shit. Im starting my life. Im starting the time where I can go out and do whatever the fuck I want. All those things were the things that got me here. & they dont even seem real.
YEEEEEEEEEEEES YOU TOTALLY UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW. For the past week or so, I’ve looked at the calender and just thought “…I haven’t gotten to live yet…I’ve been in school my entire life…the educational system has denied me the right to truly live…in 23 days, I’m going to have the opportunity to experience life”